I keep erasing everything I type, unsure of how to start this entry. I feel like this blog has become my greatest friend. One I can share the pictures I take — with no judgment — and share my adventures and all the good aspects of my life but fear showing anything but that could result in losing a good friend. But today’s events has made me reconsider a lot of things.
An acquaintance of mine passed away last night, and though I wasn’t relatively close to her it was quite shocking and truly unsettling. She had a son and had only briefly been married. It was quite sudden and unexpected. I’m at a loss of what to say, other than that it’s tragic and very sad.
It has made me realize that tomorrow is not guaranteed and any one of your loved ones could be gone the day after tomorrow. I’ve always been one to hold grudges and never forgive, but the last time that I did that I lost someone very close to me and to this day live to regret that. I don’t want that again. It’s going to be ten years, in a week, since he’s been gone and to this day we miss him terribly and will live forever knowing that I never got to express how I truly felt. I don’t wish that upon anyone, ever.
I suppose, what I’m trying to say is. It’s time to grow up and stop holding grudges. I have a wonderful life and it’s not worth holding on to that negativity. I love the people in my life. My mother, sisters, brothers, friends and my wonderful boyfriend. I don’t want a day to go by without them knowing how truly grateful I am to have them in my life.